if i had an extra $117

i would buy my brother this turntable! Gah i hate being poor somtimes...

His first record i would buy him would be Pink Floyds Animals.

i love...

Real human moments. I love humanity there's so much hope in change. I love people of all beliefs and practices coming together for a common good. I love making a difference no matter how small.

sheyanne's stepping on her soap box...

So last night there was a protest on campus that i regretfully missed. Let me just say a few words concerning what went on and what is still going on. Thursday evening was vanguards so-called annual women's appreciation night, Woo-Fest. What goes on during this festival of wooing you might ask? The women dress up, the men hand them flowers, the men perform different skits flattering the "weaker" sex, and the tradition of gender roles lives on.

A few women on campus including myself disagree with the continual subordination of women and the roles we are to play on this campus. These women felt it was their job and responsibility to speak up possibly opening the minds and hearts of our fellow vanguardians both men and women. I was doing laundry at a friends and missed the memo about the silent demonstration. These wonderfully intelligent ladies dressed up, put on aprons and binded their wrist and tapped their mouths shout. The demonstration was meant to address the way this campus views relationships and the belief that we are only complete when we have found that someone. The notion that women need to be pursued and men need to pursue to claim there mate. TRADITIONAL gender roles. We want to break free from this ideal!

So these women stood outside of Woo-Feast and staged a silent demonstration. I feel that students really didn't understand what these women were trying to say. And honestly i don't think they care to. Students were offended by the demonstration to say the least. One of the RD's on vanguards campus told the women they were being disrespectful. This man's name is Jeremy King for all of those concerned. One student who was a female told them that God created women to be submissive and that it was a spiritual thing. Really? One of the my friends was recapping the night, and it hit me there's an epidemic on campus.

Whats wrong with this campus that we cant even voice our opinions in a RESPECTFUL way. These women were exercising there constitutional right of freedom of speech. I think it is a beautiful thing to see people standing up for what they believe in. Why don't you stop one of us and ask what kind of statement we were trying to make. We what change and if I remember correctly vanguard encourages change, or am i mistaken. Does change only come with approval of the RD's? Must change get stamped and approved by ASB? Even if you don't agree with what went on last night you should still have treated those women with respect and admiration. These women have such a heart for social justice and the kingdom of heaven.

I now step down from my soap box.

shey's trippin

I tripped like eight times today whats up with that? I know I'm clumsy and all but seriously I was trippin all over the place. I really miss my family which is weird cause I'm not the type who misses family especially my family. Well I always miss my brothers and nieces. I really miss my mom and dad. It's really really really rare that I miss them. I mean I know I sound like a horrible daughter but the further they are from me the happier I am. for some inexplicable reason I miss them and I just want to be in their presents. i want to hug my dad's big belly. i want to lie in bed with my mom having a conversation in a posh British accent while watching weird sci-fi movies like the sharkman (yeah that's a real movie). I just want to be home.

This is my baby at his formal

(yes i consider my eighteen year old brother my baby!)

So I'm kinda addicted to blogging right now?

Big Giant Spiders

As I sat down to another therapy session i looked over to my left arm and there was a huge ginormous spider crawling down my shoulder!!! Hey, hello there death!

PAUSE: I've seen two movies in my life that have forever traumatized me. The first one was in 3rd grade it was about the black widow spider and the different places they like to hide. One place they love to hide is in your shoes! To this day i will not put on my shoes without checking to see if the deadly bastards are hiding in there. I also will panic if i see anything resembling a black widow. The second video was in my 7th grade science class it was entitled the life cycle of arcana's. I learned, A.) spiders can kill you, B.) If bitten by a black widow you can only take the anti venom shot one time, C.) If your lucky enough to get bitten by a black widow twice (it does happen!) you will die a horrible painful death, D.) spiders jump.

PLAY: I look over to my left arm and see a large poisonous looking spider crawling up my arm i jump up and start screaming bloody murder. my therapist who is a hippy and one of the mellowest people i know starts hitting my arm and legs to get it off me. she then knocks it off of me and stomps it to death. She then shows me the dead remains and tosses it in the trash and we calmly begin our session. Her first question: are you very frighten of spiders or is it just bugs in general?

Thee Art of Wooing

This is how I feel about Woofest

The End.

how does that make you feel?

grad. school.....

hmmm....USC most likely not going to happen. UCLA doesn't offer a MFA in creative writing. Berkeley doesn't offer an MFA in creative writing only an MFA in English with a minor in creative writing. Wisconsin state has an amazing creative writing program i can even get my PH.D. NYU has an amazing program, Emerson yet another great program and reasonable requirements. Whats wrong with all these great programs is there not in California! so the question becomes am i a strong enough person where i can go get what i want and need but leave everyone i love behind? i don't know? my future seems unreal some unattainable dream its beautiful and dangerous. life is funny i cant even wrap my mind around it everything is happening so fast I've fallen madly in love with all my friends I've only know them for 3 yrs. some only 2 and still they are my sole mates they are the ones that god put in my life so that i would know what true love feels like. so what is a women to do when she still feels like a child? suck it up i guess apply and see where the good Lawd takes me. 3 semesters and I'm done with my time at vanguard.

"Come, you spirits

That tend on mortal thoughts, unsex me here,

And fill me from the crown to the toe top-full

Of direst cruelty. Make thick my blood.

Stop up the access and passage to remorse,

That no compunctious visitings of nature

Shake my fell purpose, nor keep peace between

The effect and it! Come to my woman's breasts,

And take my milk for gall, you murd'ring ministers,

Wherever in your sightless substances

You wait on nature's mischief. Come, thick night,

And pall thee in the dunnest smoke of hell,

That my keen knife see not the wound it makes,

Nor heaven peep through the blanket of the dark

To cry “Hold, hold!”

Lady Macbeth Rules!!

catcher in the rye

I never really got it "Catcher in the Rye", the concept of a person saving all the innocent children from running over the edge. As i sit listening to yet another one of my friends shed tears over yet another asshole who's ruined her life that image of Holden Caulfield catching children popped into my brain. That is one of the most beautiful images in literature and i don't think i ever really grasped the power of it until tonight. There is so much evil in this world you cant seem to keep it off you and no matter where you turn its there in one form or the other. I'm tired of not having the answer. I'm tired of not knowing what to say or how to help. I want to protect the ones i love from going over the edge but i feel like there are too many and there all coming at me at once. We need more Catchers in the Rye!! Our world is falling apart.

11 year olds with attitudes and eating disorders

One day i wont have to work crappy side jobs where i make popcorn and take shit from 11 year olds with attitudes and eating disorders. One day i will be a successful author who teaches the future Hemingway's and Ammaniti's the finer points of creative writing.

I saw a very attractive man from UCLA while at work. I wanted to ask him if it was worth the 40,000 a year and if he was in the grad. program, but instead I handed him the incorrect change. I also broke my nail while at work.

i decided I'm going to name my first born Unferth.

hmmm... family violence. my heart breaks with clearity every time i leave that class. Dr. Leonard is amazing. I think its mind boggling how it is that shes not in the corner sucking her thumb with all that shit that she's seen. It blows me away how she still smiles and laughs! I've learned so much and I'm begining to understand.

on a lighter note i love getting to know interesting people and to realize that I'm not the only person with a twisted sense of humor and who recognizes how moronic people at this school are!! Stephine I'm talking about you my dear!! fuck theater majors! and their army hats!!

me and my roommate have a touch of OCD every time we get an idea of how to change the room we do it right then no questions asked!! we pretty much have to best room ever!! we took out our couch (Sad day) it was killing us with allergies (damn cats!!)

we then re/disassembled our beds for the 3rd time, hung up record covers on the big wall, hung vinyls over the closet, and painted animal versions of ourselves? yeah we like decorating

i love my roommate. we like to talk in Siberian accents for funs. here is a picture...

shes pretty much the best.

so i can tell I'm going to have a problem with this blog. I'm already addicted is that strange? so this weekend i went to the pacific islander festival it was amazing so many Asians!! oh the beautiful Samoan men!! it was my first time in San Diego. i saw sea world which made me really happy i mean really happy!

i start my new tutoring job next week so that should be interesting considering i hate children? that sounds mean but its true i really dislike children. they're always dirty and sticky? i get paid good money so thats all that matters i guess? well thats enough so one night i have homework to do and heathers bringing me a jamba juice!!

i am bored and need somthing to consume my life so i've created a blog. read about my random thoughts and experinces.