new years resoultion

so i decided i want to make a new years resolution. well more like goals for which i want to achieve in the year 2009 without feeling guilty if i dont end up doing any
1.) stop complaining so much
2.) be happy for what i have
3.) get to know my Abba a little better
4.) become more socially aware
5.) i want my heart to brake for those who suffer the injustices of the world
6.) become the next Harvey milk of vanguard university
7.) have the courage it takes to do 1-6
8.) finish my book
9.) get into a masters program
10.) go on a road trip

Money, it's a crime. Share it fairly but dont take a slice of my pie

I just sat and calculated how much books were going to be $355. So I basically have to decide what class I want to fail in. shit why cant I be like these vanguardians who parents actually help them and give them more than the occasional $50 bucks! I don't want nice things I just want to be able to go out to eat with my floor, have money for outings of any kind, or buy my fucking text books! I look like a jerk sitting in class because I haven't read. Then people say, oh were one of those lazy people who don't read. I'm so much better then you cause I read! If I could I would read the assigned reading its just that all three years I had to pick and choose what books to buy! I know I should be happy with what I have. I'm just frustrated because my goal seems impossible and I'm feeling overwhelmed with my life. I don't need to go shopping every week. I'm not complaining that i have to eat ramen for lunch and dinner, or that i budget for water, shampoo, and toilet paper, or that I've been using the same foundation for 2 years, or that my piece of shit hand me down computer shuts down every 10 minutes. No, I'm not complaining. I just want to have my fucking text books every semester without getting a stomach ulcer obtaining them!

16 random facts about ME

so this was somthing that caught my eye on face book 16 random facts i wanted to do one but i didnt was to send one to 16 people so here it goes.
1.) i'm unsure of myself
2.) i have more phobias than fingers and toes
3.) i love cats
4.) i always go for the underdog
5.) i'm uncomfortable with success or praise of any kind
6.) i have a habit of interrupting i've been like that since childhood (i'm the middle child its the only way i ever got a word in!!)
7.) i'm highly secreative
8.) i open up too quickly
9.) i love catching lizards and butterflies
10.) i love too much
11.) i get hurt too easy
12.) i sleep alot
13.) i dont like my toes to touch so i never wear socks
14.) i sucked my thumb until i was 16
15.) i've never broken a bone
16.) i'm obsessed with my teeth

so i watched the curious case of Benjamin button (horrible movie by the way) and the only thing i really got out of the movie was Benjamin saying something along the lines of the... when you go home the only thing you realized that has changed is you. never more true then Christmas break.